since the Rwandan genocide.
“there is nothing you can do, they are dead and it will happen again.”
by diego barrera
Wed 23- Los Angeles US – Church on York w/ Kid 606 and Tearist
Wed 30 – Krems, AU – Donau Festival: Dark Material
Thu 1 – Krems, AU – Donau Festival – Xiu Xiu show & Dark Material
Fri 2 – Krems, AU – Donau Festival : Dark Material
Sat 3 – Krems, AU – Donau Festival : Dark Material
Sun 4 – Krems, AU – Donau Festival: Dark Material
Mon 5 – St Gallen, CH – Grabenhalle with The Residents
Wed 7 – Lausanne, CH – Le Romandie
Thu 8 – Venezia, IT – Teatro Fondamenta Nuove
Fri 9 – Udine, IT – Pn Box
Sat 10 – Torino, IT – El Barrio
Sun 11 – Brescia, IT – A Palazzo Gallery
Mon 12 – Lyon, FR – Grrnd Zero
Tue 13 – Paris, FR – Petit Bain
Wed 14 – Brest, FR – La Carene
Thu 15 – Lille, FR – La Malterie
Fri 16 – Utrecht, NL, Ekko
Sat 17 – Gent, BE, Democrazy @ DOK-Box with White Hinterland
Sun 18 – Rotterdam, NL, WORM
Tue 20 – Leeds, UK – Brudenell Social Club Games Room
Thu 22 – London, UK – Xiu Xiu & ATP present “The Reds Of Their Eyes” @ Birthdays with
Fri 23 – Groningen, NL – Lepel Festival
Sat 24 – Copenhagen, DK – Jazzhouse with Circuit Des Yeux
Sun 25 – Berlin, DE – Volksbühne with Owen Pallett
Tue 27 – Hamburg, DE – Kampnagel
Fri 30 – Moscow, RU – PIPL with Psychic TV
Sat 1 – St Petersburg – RU – Zal Ojidaniya with Psychic TV
Thurs 5 – Mexico City MX El Plaza Condesa with Deerhoof
for the last 3 months i have been suicidally depressed. this state has come and gone all of adult life, however, the last bout is the worst i have mired though in 10 years.
this friday, after the latest in what has been a typhoon of music business related humiliations, insipid health problems and religious and existential quandaries i was at the end my figurative rope.
leaving the 5th physician i had seen in as many days i was in a mania. in response, i decided to (see below) make 100 cartoon cat drawings, sell them for a lot of money and then buy a cool looking gun and shoot myself in the heart so i did not gross people i love out by my face being exploded.
i sat in the dark, lit a black destruction candle and a black san simon candle and started drawing. when angela walked in the door, i said, “going crazy, drawing 100 cats.” she started laughing hysterically. it was the perfect response.
it took two days in three sessions, the first friday from 4pm to 4am, then saturday noon to 10pm, and then 1 am to 5 am. to keep from being lonely in my last hours alive on this earth, i watched movies the whole time.